Saturday, February 21, 2015

Finding My Inner Buddha

Found this quote on Facebook today. And when I first read it, the thought appealed to me. I mean, who wouldn't rather be the lion in the story, right? 


Buddhism, mindfulness, all that stuff appeals to me quite a bit. But I'm never able to actually embrace the whole of it because when I look too closely at the teachings, the writings of Milarepa, for example, I see rules, judgment, and dogma. Right away, I'm wanting to break the rules, and poke at the status quo.

Yes, I agree that we all take life on earth way too seriously, and I love the idea that it's all a grand illusion, that we are merely actors on a stage, taking on different roles. Sure, I can go there. I actually believe it. But hey, if I'm going to be an actor in this bone chilling, skin wrenching, heart clenching, mind blowing show called ShirleyTwofeathers, I want to be in it all the way. I want to feel it, to taste it, and grab onto it just as desperately and determinedly as I am to avoid it completely. 

I guess that's why hiding in a cave in the Himalayas, owning nothing, responsible for nothing, doing nothing, being nothing, eyes fixed and vacant, totally detached from everything and everyone, sounds so appealing to me. Enlightenment, yogi style, is the ultimate escape from living my real life.

But that's not what I came here to do. That's not who I want to be. And it's not who I am right now. And so I give up my dream of being an enlightened and scary lion. I will continue chasing the sticks my mind throws... and running around crazy with them... chewing them... shredding them all over the carpet... then asking for one more time... one more time... one more time... until finally and at last I fall asleep, stick still in my mouth, smelling like wet dog and dead wood.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Finding My Inner Ranger


Well, day one of finding my inner Ranger has gone pretty well, I think. I have an idea that this could possibly be the one year when I actually succeed in my quest to "be" who I want to be. But I dunno... it's just the first day. I'm posting a clip from Lord of the Rings to give me some inspiration and some umph... especially when I just want to sit around and eat cookies...

And this post has been moved to my personal blog at shirleytwofeathers.com, and can be found in its entirety here: Finding My Inner Ranger

Saturday, December 31, 2011

It's Not My Fault

Every year - on the first day of the year - I watch the Lord of the Rings. I watch the whole thing, the extended edition, all the way through, start to finish. I totally immerse myself in Middle Earth, and I think about if The Lord of the Rings was real and true, and if I was an actual person in that real and true story - who would I be? who have I been? and most importantly who do I want to be?

I've blogged this before (Gandalf Changed My Life) - but last year I didn't talk about it at all. Which I find interesting. And because of that, I'm not entirely sure what my thoughts were - I do remember that I was pretty damn sure that I was a miserable failure at "being Aragorn." And since I'd failed time and again in my quest to personify the coolest character in the trilogy, I decided to try something totally different.

I decided that I'd give "being Frodo" a go. I had this idea that I would spend the year "taking the ring to Mordor." The ring being a metaphor for my sugar and crap food addiction. The idea being that how could I ever hope to achieve Aragorn if I couldn't even defeat the craving for a cookie.

And this post has been moved to my personal blog at shirleytwofeathers.com - I think it's definitely worth reading all the way through, and if you're interested, you can find it here:  It's Not My Fault


Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Yeah! I want that too!!


I want to learn how to purr. Abandon myself, have mistresses in maidenhair fern, own no tomorrow nor yesterday: a blank shimmering space forward and back. I want to think with my belly. I want to name all the stars animals flowers birds rocks in order to forget them, start over again. I want to wear the seasons, harlequin, become ancient and etched by weather. I want to be snow pulse, ruminating ungulate, pebble at the bottom of the abyss, candle burning darkness rather than flame. I want to peer at things shameless, observe the unfastening, that stripping of shape by dusk. I want to sit in the meadow a rotten stump pungent with slimemold, home for pupae and grubs, concentric rings collapsing into the passacaglia of time. I want to crawl inside someone and hibernate one entire night with no clocks to wake me, thighs fragrant loam. I want to melt. I want to swim naked with an otter. I want to turn inside out, exchange nuclei with the Sun. Toward the mythic kingdom of summer I want to make blind motion, using my ribs as a raft, following the spiders as they set sail on their tasseled shining silk. Sometimes even a single feather’s enough to fly."

-Robert Maclean

Sunday, October 10, 2010

A Real Shaman

I found a great blog post about shamanism at a pretty cool website called Blue Plant Shaman. The whole thing is worth reading - I just pulled the juicy part out for posting here. It's a list for the basic requirement for a person to be a good Shaman. And hey, I think I qualify! And I've gotta say, I like this guy!

  1. You need to come from a dysfunctional family.
  2. You need to understand abuse, alcohol, drug, sexual, physical, mental, verbal, the more the better.
  3. You need to have a fast mind. This is usually shown through a quick humor and/or problem solving skills.
  4. You may have a thought that nothing is sacred nor should it be.
  5. You will probably have a very strong sex drive.
  6. You may think some things are funny while other people severely disagree.
  7. You have the ability to teach without formal training.
  8. Even the most introverted people will instantly open up to you.
  9. You can make friends with the most vicious junk yard dog because you can relate.
  10. You had the “visits” from the other side at an early age.


Sometimes we can seem like a twisted bunch, but everyone wants to come to our parties.

They can be all the things that you would never expect a Shaman to be in places that seem so unholy or spiritual. Normally you won’t find them in some air conditioned classroom teaching someone else’s bullshit because the have an “I passed a Shamanic course” paper on the wall.

Shamanism is getting into life and everything that goes with it. Shamanism is about experimentation and testing your theories before you try to teach something. A real Shaman will let you know you are a fucked up individual and not try to dress it up with some white lighter justification. A real Shaman will help you develop who you really are, not who everyone thinks you should be. A real Shaman understands that some things just can’t be fixed and may take a temporary job as a sniper in a third world shit hole.

So Shamanism has evolved a long way from telling the story of when the Great Raven flapped its wings seven times and created the universe, or how some chic that was fucking around on her husband said God knocked her up. Shamanism became the reality show that HBO won’t even air.

“The people you see on this show are real. Their names and identities have not been changed, no one is protected. The situations are real and there are no co incidences between what you see in Shamanism and real life you dumbass, new age flake.”

Personally, I really don’t want to hang with anyone in Shamanism that doesn’t have some kind of bad reputation or rumors. People make mistakes. Or do they? Maybe it’s divine guidance for our higher learning. Yeah, that’s it. I channeled that.

Shamanism is about being yourself, being honest about it, and being ok with that.

Shamanism is living a life that will make a great true story that will be told as a teaching implement. Live it. Don’t leave any blank pages. One day the book will close.

If I was to say there was only one sin, it would be not living true to your nature. A Shaman will live according to their true nature and that’s the main reason they usually don’t fit in. So goes Shamanism through the ages. It will always be one of those places that the out of ordinary people go to fit in with the other black sheep of humanity that people look to for spiritual guidance.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

My Big Dreams

Over at the Prosperity Project, we're doing a 30 day series on the secrets of self made millionaires. The first one is Dream Big, and I've already realized something important.

Not only do I get scared when I start having those big dreams of my spectacular future, I am not consistent with what I envision, and worse than that, my dreams and ideas of what my ideal and wonderful life would be are at odds with one another. So, I am already stuck and it's just the first day.

I have no idea how to make those big dreams fit together in a rational way. I'll show you what I mean:

Dream #1: Multiple streams of internet income, and all I have to do is sit at the computer for 3 or 4 hours a day, blogging, creating, interacting with my multitudes of readers, while the Google Checks, the Amazon Checks, and the PayPal deposits just roll on in. I can go where I want - when I want - because I'll have a really cool state of the art laptop and wireless internet. If the weather gets shitty - I can just get into my pretty much new, well maintained, totally comfortable, mileage efficient, and lovely vehicle and go someplace else. I like this dream a lot! (The freedom factor in this one is huge!)

Dream #2: I am a much beloved teacher of Reiki, Art, Color Healing, Shamanism, Gypsy Magick, Animal Communication, and whatever else I find interesting and fun to teach. My classes are always full. My phone is always ringing with people wanting to talk about classes, or their experiences, or to express how awesome that last class was. My calendar is full and yet I do find time to go attend workshops and classes myself, always expanding what I know, and finding ways to experience new things. (The I'm so cool factor is big in this one - lots of strokes here.)

Dream #3: Wow, I'm an artist. I have a great studio full of cool art supplies and every morning I go out to that studio with my freshly brewed espresso and just go crazy creating "wow" art. My agent comes periodically and fills his/her van up with art for galleries that are panting for more. My checking account is overflowing and I hardly notice because I am having so much fun simply creating cool stuff. In the evenings I hang out in the hot tub with friends. (The fun factor is the greatest draw here.)

So there they are - I thought there was more, but I just realized that the rest of my ideas are simply variations on the above themes.

I can get excited and energized thinking about each one of those big dreams. The problem is that they seem to cancel each other out. But now that I've written them down, I'm starting to see how they just might fit together...

I could have multiple streams of internet income... and be an artist... I'd just have to have a base of operations - a place for the studio, and after a huge push to get a bunch of stuff created, I could hop into my vehicle and head for some R&R. But how would the classes fit into this scenario? Maybe I could schedule classes with 2 or 3 weeks of down time in between.

Let me see... Art in the morning... followed by an afternoon on the internet... rounded off by classes in the evening. I could theoretically schedule the classes ... hmmm... a full day on Saturdays - back to back classes with a nice long lunch break. Sunday afternoons for more energy intensive events like medicine wheels, journey work, sweats, etc. And then 2 or 3 evenings a week for the other classes. As long as I schedule 1 or 2 days during the week for down time - it might actually work... It would be nice to have two whole days exclusively devoted to art. I know - that could be my "down" time, my "rejuvenate my brain" time. I could just get into that flow of color and form... turn off the phone and be in the zone.

So, that gives me plenty of time for art, and if I did 4 classes on Saturday, 1 on Sunday, and just 3 others during the week - well - that's a lot of classes. Let me see... that means 7 classes - I could be doing reiki, art, animal communication, shamanism, tarot and divination, and color healing. That's 6 classes which means plenty of time for one or two more if I feel so inclined. And if I scheduled them to all start on the same week - and run for the same length of time 4 or 5 weeks - my rest and recoup time would be available with no problem. Then I could hop into my vehicle and head for the hills with laptop in tow and plenty of time for solitude and relaxation.

Geez... I started out this morning thinking it was impossible and now here we have it... my big dream!!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

Me, a Jedi?

Ok guys, I've been reading the code of the Jedi and I'm thinking it might be a cool set of rules to try to live by. I like how it sounds, and I'm wondering what my life would look like if I actually "did life" in the Jedi way.

So, to that end, I've uploaded the following:

Hopefully my attempts to be one with the force won't turn out looking something like this:



A Code of Belief for Jedi

1. As Jedi, we are in touch with the Living Force flowing through and around us, as well as being spiritually aware of the Force. Jedi are trained to become sensitive to the Force's energy, fluctuations, and disturbances.

2. Jedi live and focus on the present; we must neither dwell on the past nor be overly concerned about the future. As the mind wanders, focusing on the present is a task not easily attained, for the mind is not content with the eternal present moment. As Jedi, we must release our stress and ease our minds.

3. Jedi must maintain a clear mind; this is achieved through meditation and contemplation. Our minds can become cluttered and infected by forces and attitudes that we encounter every day, and must be purged of these unnecessary elements on a daily basis.

4. As Jedi, we are mindful of our thoughts... we focus our thoughts on the positive. The positive energy of the force is healthy for the mind, body and spirit.

5. As Jedi, we trust and use our feelings. We are intuitive, more so than others and with this heightened intuition we become more spiritually evolved as our minds become more harmonious with the Force and its influences.

6. Jedi are patient. Patience is elusive but can be consciously developed over time.

7. Jedi are mindful of the negative emotions which lead to the Dark Side: Anger, Fear, Aggression, and Hate. If we sense these emotions manifesting within ourselves, we must meditate on the Jedi Code and focus on purging these destructive emotions.

8. Jedi understand that physical training is as important as training the mind and the spirit. We understand that all aspects of training are necessary to maintain the Jedi way of life and to perform the duties of a Jedi.

9. Jedi protect the peace. We are warriors of peace, and are not ones to use force to resolve a conflict; it is through peace, understanding and harmony that conflicts resolve.

10. Jedi believe in destiny and trust in the will of the Living Force. We accept the fact that what seems to be random events are not random at all, but the design of the Living Force of Creation. Each living creature has a purpose, understanding that purpose comes with a deep awareness of the Force. Even things that happen which seem negative have a purpose, though that purpose is not easy to see.

11. Jedi must let go of obsessive attachment, both material and personal. The obsession over possessions creates the fear of loosing those possessions, which can lead to the Dark Side.

12. Jedi believe in eternal life. We do not become obsessed in mourning those who pass. Grieve as you will but take heart, for the soul and spirit continue in the netherworld of the Living Force.

13. Jedi use the Force only when it is necessary. We do not apply our abilities or powers to boast or be prideful. We use the Force for knowledge, and exercise wisdom and humility in doing so, for humility is a trait all Jedi must embody.

14. We as Jedi believe that love and compassion are central to our lives. We must love each other as we love ourselves; by doing this, we envelope all life in the positive energy of the Force.

15. Jedi are guardians of peace and justice. We believe in finding peaceful solutions to problems, gifted as we are we remain negotiators of the utmost ability. We never negotiate out of fear, but never fear to negotiate. We embrace justice, protecting and preserving the fundamental rights of all living creatures. Empathy and compassion are vital to us; it allows us to comprehend the wounds caused by injustice.

16. We as Jedi make a commitment to, and are loyal to the Jedi cause. The ideals, philosophies, and practices of the Jedi define the belief of Jediism, and we take action on this path for self-improvement, and to help others. We are both the witnesses and protectors of the Jedi way by the practice of our Faith.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Confusions of the Mind

Here we have Alan Watts audio from Disturbing confusions of the mind. I love this guy.



The Alan Watts Story While many in the 60's played the stock market and paid their mortgages, Alan Watts lived aboard a colorful houseboat, writing, speaking, and inspiring a generation to re-assess their values.

For more than forty years, Alan Watts earned a reputation as a foremost interpreter of Eastern philosophies for the West. Beginning at age sixteen, when he wrote essay for the journal of the Buddhist Lodge in London, he developed an audience of millions who were enriched through his books, tape recordings, radio, television, and public lectures.

In all, Watts wrote more than twenty-five books and recorded hundreds of lectures and seminars, all building toward a personal philosophy that he shared in complete candor and joy with his readers and listeners throughout the world. His overall works have presented a model of individuality and self-expression that can be matched by few philosophers.

His life and work reflects an astonishing adventure: he was an editor, Anglican priest, graduate dean, broadcaster, author, lecturer, and entertainer. He had fascinations for archery, calligraphy, cooking, chanting, and dancing, and still was completely comfortable hiking alone in the wilderness. He held a Master's Degree in Theology from Sudbury-Western Theological Seminary and an Honorary DD from the University of Vermont in recognition of his work in the field of comparative religions. He held fellowships from Harvard University and the Bollingen Foundation, and was Episcopal Chaplain at Northwestern University during the Second World War.

He became professor and dean of the American Academy of Asian Studies in San Francisco, made the television series "Eastern Wisdom and Modern Life" for National Educational Television, and served as a visiting consultant for psychiatric institutions and hospitals, and for the United States Air Force. In the mid-sixties he travelled widely with his students in Japan, and visited Burma, Ceylon, and India.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Be Like The Moon



"be like the moon. the moon will never lie to anyone. no one hates the moon or wants to kill it. the moon does not take anti-depressants and never gets sent to prison. the moon never shot a guy in the face and ran away. the moon has been around a long time and has never tried to rip anyone off. the moon does not care who you want to touch or what color you are. the moon treats everyone the same. the moon never tries to get in on the guest list or use your name to impress others. be like the moon. when others insult and belittle in an attempt to elevate themselves, the moon sits passively and watches, never lowering itself to anything that weak. the moon is beautiful and bright. the moon never shoves clouds out of its way so it can be seen. the moon needs not fame nor money to be powerful. the moon never asks you to go to war to defend it. be like the moon."

- Henry Rollins

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Parenting Fail?

I found this today on Yahoo, and I thought it was interesting... and also annoying! Here is a man, a person with billions of dollars, a "success" in life, maybe he's even a good person... I don't know... But here he is giving the best advice he's ever received and it's totally useless to me in terms of money and success.

"The power of unconditional love. I mean, there is no power on earth like unconditional love. And I think that if you offered that to your child, I mean you’re 90 percent of the way home. There may be days when you don’t feel like it, it’s not uncritical love, that’s a different animal, but to know you can always come back, that is huge in life. That takes you a long, long way. And I would say that every parent out there that can extend that to their child at an early age, it’s going to make for a better human being." ~Warren Buffett

One of the things I can for sure say about my parents - despite all the shit they put me through, despite all the shit I put them through, I always knew they loved me. I always knew I could "come home" and be welcomed with open arms. Even if that meant there'd be a fair amount of "preaching" and "sermonizing" and criticism, even if it meant they'd never really "get" me... it was always there... their love for me.

And yet - I'm not rich. As a matter of fact, not only am I not rich, I'm not comfortable, well off, or even just OK. I'm scrambling all the time to make ends meet. Nor am I successful on any level from which I would measure success. I'm not at all happy or satisfied with my life, not at all. As a matter of fact, just yesterday I was contemplating how pleasurable it would be to just walk right out of it.

So how useful is it, really, to have received unconditional love from your parents? I don't know... it sounds good, it feels good, but how has it helped me? Am I a better human being? Better than what? Better than who? Of course on the other hand, without it, maybe I'd be living in a box under a bridge nursing my heroin habit - or maybe I'd be in prison - or long dead... But maybe not, maybe I would have pulled myself up by my own bootstraps and made a better "go" at it!

Just yesterday, my friend Michelle was telling me this story about a woman who was on, of all things, the Tyra Banks Show. As I remember it, the story goes as follows:

Her mother died when she was 10, her abusive stepfather put her in foster care where she was raped and abused, she ended up on the street, a prostitude at the age of 11, got hooked on drugs, a pretty terrible life. Worse than mine, that's for sure. And then one day, when she was in her 40's, something happened, I don't remember what, and she got her act together went school, studied law, and became a lawyer. Now, she's a "success" and I bet she has money! So... there you have it... I doubt if she ever had unconditional parental love, even once. And yet, if you measure her life against mine - she'd win hands down.

On the other hand, what if... and this is the other thing I was thinking about after I watched the video... what if... I made a conscious decision to meet everyone, every single person I see, with that attitude of unconditional love. What would happen to my life then? What if, despite the fact that I really really really dislike my neighbors - what if, I met them with an attitude of no barriers, and unconditional love. And what if I went to my job, that I don't enjoy at all, and instead of being all closed into my fatigue, resentment, boredom, and intense desire to run away screaming... what if instead of all that, I simply met each experience with an attitude of unconditional love. What if there was an openess and an acceptance of ... whoa nelly! I can't believe I'm going to actually say this... an unconditional loving of me - screwed up mess that I am...

Now that just might be pretty powerful! Question is, can I do it? Bigger question, will I even attempt it?

Ok, so now that I've talked it to death, here's the video:

Thursday, May 6, 2010

So I Went A Little Crazy...

Yesterday I went a little off the deep end... which I'm sure comes as a huge surprise to those of you who know and love me! I think I watched every single Tina Turner video on YouTube. Eventually, I grabbed the embed codes for a bunch of her videos which I'm sharing here today.

What a woman she is! So much enthusiasm, so much energy, so full of life and passion! I was just riveted... and then, of course, I got depressed because hey, I'll never be as cool as Tina Turner... let's face it... that ship left the harbor before I was even born!

So now I have one more person that I want to be and can't be... And I'm thinking, wouldn't it be unusual... wierd even... if suddenly the person I wanted to be was actually myself?

But it isn't ... and so here are the links to all those Tina Turner videos in case you didn't happen to see them when they posted:
But wait! I've even got Tina Turner Quotes!

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

The Girl From Nutbush



And who is the girl from Nutbush? Yeah... Tina Turner. I'm not quite sure of the order of these videos. But I don't think it actually matters too much. Very interesting.... If it would have been my life, I'd probably have run away from home so I could end up picking cotton someplace else... and when I left my abusive husband, I probably would have ended up totally alone living a not fun not cool life... oh... wait... that's what I'm doing right now!





One of the Living



Here's Tina Turner's music video, "One Of The Living" from "Mad Max Beyond Thunderdome" with clips from the movie.



Here are the lyrics:

In the desert sun every step that you take could be the final one
In the burning heat hanging on the edge of destruction
You can't stop the pain of your children crying out in your head
They always said that the living would envy the dead

So now you're gonna shoot bullets of fire
Don't wanna fight but sometimes you've got to
You're some soul survivor
There's just one thing you've got to know
You've got ten more thousand miles to go

Because you're one of the living
And if we can't stick together
One of the living
Who's gonna make it tonight

Walk tall, cool, collected and savage
Walk tall, bruised, sensual, ravaged
It's every man for himself, every woman, every child
A new breed, ferocious and wild

And all they want to do is shoot bullets of fire
They wanna fight and sometimes you've got to
You're some soul survivor
There's just one thing you've got to know
You've got ten more thousand years to go

Because you're one of the living
And if we can't stick together
One of the living
Who's gonna make it tonight

Sunday, May 2, 2010

A Zen Meditation



Wow - here's a clip from one of my all time favorite movies, "Baraka." I wonder what my life would be like if I could move through it with such precision and in such a clearly against the flow and yet with the flow way. I wish I had that depth of commitment!

Shaolin Monks - Too Cool!



This is even better than those way cool martial arts movies because actually real! If I have the opportunity to come back and do life all over again, I think it would be really cool start off as a Shaolin Monk - at the astoundingly early age of... I dunno... 5 years old? Of course, I'd want to be good at it - have a "natural talent" for it, and the right physical attributes, etc... so when I make my deal with whoever it is that's in charge of reincarnation, I'll have to be really clear in my intention. I not only want to be a Shaolin - I want to be fucking good at it!

And agreed, it's a hard life... but hey... it's so cool, and wouldn't you want to be that disciplined and strong? that enduring and fierce?







Sunday, April 11, 2010

You Know You've Watched Too Many Vampire Shows When

You know you've watched too many vampire shows when you are walking through a veterinary clinic and happen to see an IV bag full of blood on the counter, and your first thought is, "Yummy!"

And guess what? I did that just yesterday. So it really does look like I've been watching too many vampire shows. How many is too many? Here's the list:

First I watched the entire 7 seasons of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" back to back. Every single night it was 3 episodes of Buffy. Then I rented every single vampire movie I could find at my little video store. I watched "Twilight" and "New Moon" with my granddaughter, (very high school - I can see why she likes it). Then I worked my way through "Moonlight," a fluffy little series, but not too bad. And now I've started in on "Blood Ties" which is actually pretty good. And as soon as the second season of "True Blood" comes out I'll be biting into that one.

Not only that, I've been playing Vampire Wars on Facebook, and having wonderfully satisfying fantasies about when I am a vampire who will I kill. So, it's been vampires on my mind pretty much for several months now.

And then, I open my email this morning only to find out that I'm dead. Or, more accurately one of the living dead, or possibly an even better description would be that I have joined the ranks of the undead, which is quite similar to but not the same as the not dead.

The not quite "normal and sane" part of me is hoping that I'll somehow manage to become a real vampire - maybe by osmosis - so that I can be forever cool and dangerous. Instead of what I actually am, which is ... well... not cool and not dangerous... and I just want my life to be ... well... more interesting!

So, do you suppose that's possible? To become a vampire, I mean? Maybe all these vampire movies could actually begin work on my DNA. The Hawaiian Kahunas believe that you are what you think about! And if that did happen would I miss the sun? Would I be sorry later? And what if it turned out that I was just as uncool and not dangerous in the vampire world as I am in the real world? And what if I really am cool and dangerous, right here, right now, today, I just don't know it? And why do I want to be dangerous anyway?

Monday, February 8, 2010

Samurai Warriors Were Real

Since I'm going to start living by the Samurai Code (just as soon as I get over being scared of it) I thought it might be helpful to remind myself that Samurai Warriors were actually real people who lived in the real world and really did do real stuff. This is not some fantasy fiction I found in an obscure book. So... here are some photos!




My Dream Job!

So, I searched Craig's List for jobs today, and found my dream job, the one I should have applied for AND gotten back when I was fresh out of high school and just getting started with the extreme mess I have made of my life.


Globe Circling Master artist-photographer-writer seeks interns (Gramercy)

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Date: 2010-02-06, 5:49PM EST
Reply to: job-ndfgb-1589075059@craigslist.org

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GLOBE CIRCLING MASTER ADVENTURE TRAVEL ARTIST, PHOTOGRAPHER, WRITER SEEKS DARING INTERNS: “IF YOUR LIFE BORES YOU, RISK IT”

Harvey Lloyd, top million and a half mile adventure travel artist, master photographer, writer, aerial photography specialist, iconoclast and poet (www.harveylloyd.com) seeks the best, brightest, creative, energetic, dedicated self-starters as interns, assistants, or apprentices in his atelier. Apply if you have a “fire in your hair” passion for art, photography, science, technology, endless curiosity, study the university of the Internet, and have an insatiable desire to see and witness the world. You will dare anything to become a “tenth degree black belt” rebellious, sensitive, madly creative, out of the box artist. You will work like hell to know and master the exponentially expanding artist’s “paintbox” —the magic, empowering art and techniques of digital photography and digital software .In short, you are one of the best and the brightest!

Artist-photographer Harvey Lloyd runs a creative, no holds barred, damned to hell with all pedagogic rules, aging mind sets, political correctness and restraints—a fire in the belly, freedom loving chaotic studio. We work passionately, recklessly, intuitively and sensitively to shatter the boundaries, cliches and limits of any and all arts and sciences that deal with vision and images. We live, love and breathe the magic of the digital revolution, work, practice and play 7/24 to explore and ex the limits of creativity and freedom. We are the future!

The digital age demands new blood, new minds, new eyes, passion, tenacity, boldness, courage and the greatest audacity. Fear of failure is the opiate of unenlightened pedants, bean counters and the orthodoxy of mass culture. Read every line of this revolutionary manifesto please, and e-mail your answer as requested below.

I erect myself at the exact point where knowledge meets madness and I erect no safety rail.
—BALZAC

Digital photography grandly bestows on us the virtually unknown and limitless child born of quantum perplexity, chance—the serendipity of the unexpected— and the holographic nature of light and light’s universe. Digital images emerge as pure information, a new life giving profound, passionate potential, a quantum leap to the stars from the limitations of celluloid film. The power of digital technology, cameras and software gives is the power of limitless information in the service of imagination, a becoming filled with the DNA and fires of an unborn child, evolution taking a giant step to knowing herself, the reckless, fierce and holy scriptures of new art. . Sculptor David Smith proclaimed, “An arrogant independence to create is my only motivation ”

Digital photography is a quantum leap from the discipline of film photography which was limited to “real” images. What you saw is what you got. Digital, like quantum physics deals with light’s universe, indeterminacy. It is a cloud that exists only in the form of unlimited information . This astonishing, exponentially expanding medium challenges us to learn to explore and see the many masks and faces of the world and of the universe—to see “what isn’t there.”

You must concentrate upon and consecrate yourself wholly to each day as though a fire were raging in your hair.
—The Zen Way to the Martial Arts

This manifesto calls and challenges those few who have the fire in their hair, and the passion, courage, tenacity and will to triumph over all obstacles. In the immortal words of heroic explorer Sir Ernest Shackleton in his ad for an Antarctic exploration adventure, “Safe return doubtful. Honor and recognition in event of success.” Join us if yyou dare, and set sail on the unexplored and tempestuous seas of Lloyd’s way, “The Zen of Fluid Motion Digital Photography.”

See Lloyd’s new books, FIRE IN MY HAIR, Reinventing the Art of Photography in the Digital Age; and VOICES FROM THE FUTURE, Young People Speak About Their Lives, Art and Photography (your voices ) and THE SAMURAI WAY, Spiritual Adventures with a Warrior Photographer. On the website, Lloyd’s revolutionary abstract BREAKING THE LIGHT digital images display light’s invisible patterns. These single exposure images predict and map a digital future unknown, mysterious and unseen until now. Lloyd’s work shatters the conventions of two hundred years of traditional photography.
His abstract digital camera paintings proclaim a revolutionary new direction and historic turning point for the art of photography.

Jack Kerouac shouted, The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes 'Awww '

Learn the secrets of the greatest mystery—how to live and work at a totally creative, freedom loving and paid for artist’s way of life and profession in the real world—and never get bored, quit, retire, slow down or stop creating. The power of digital technology frees an artist to, in the great French “Art Brute” painter Dubuffet’s words, “re-invent the world every day.”

Lloyd has over forty years behind the lens making adventure travel, aerial, journalistic, abstract expressionist images, documentary films, and multi-screen, multi-media shows worldwide. He has ten published picture books to his credit among which are THE SAMURAI WAY, Spiritual Adventures with a Warrior Photographer; SACRED LANDS OF THE SOUTHWEST: aerial photography of Arizona, Utah and New Mexico; AERIAL PHOTOGRAPHY, the first book on how to do this art;. Books, DVD sound & light shows in progress and finished include YELLOWSTONE: THE DEVIL’S VOLCANO, FOUR SEASONS OF HENRY MOORE at the New York Botanical Garden; ULTIMATE ROSES: The inner life of roses; THE DEAD SEA: Aerial Photographs of Mysterious Rainbows; and SACRED LANDS OF THE SOUTHWEST; The Grandeur of the National Parks.

Light is more fundamental than space and time...There is no medium for light in the physical world because light is not in the physical world. The physical world is in light. Light is visual consciousness itself.
—SAMUEL AVERY, Transcendence of the Western Mind;
Physics, Metaphysics and Life on Earth

Lloyd hangs out of helicopters over seven continents and seven seas. His chaotic, creative, anything goes, multi-award winning, inventive, idol smashing studio is a rare bird in the fierce wars of the business worlds of art and photography. You will learn professional and business practices from his forty plus years of business and marketing skills—getting published in media, writing proposals for picture books and getting them published, creating installations, multi-screen and documentary projects, securing paid assignments to exotic destinations around the world—to gaining media coverage, negotiating, budgeting, billing and employing winning business strategy. Like Patton and DeGaulle, war our cry is L’audace, l’audace, toujours l’audace

Imagination is more important than knowledge.
—ALBERT EINSTEIN

The great guru and sensei, the raptor of the Empyrean heights once said, “Expect Nothing, You are the universe IMPORTANT: Please see, read or get the book THE SAMURAI WAY: Spiritual Journeys With A Warrior Photographer by Lloyd and, if you can, see his other published books. Visit the studio website www.harveylloyd.com. Send an e-mail to atelierhl@aol.com with your comments on the website and the imagery. Your perception and understanding of the images, essays and books will influence the process of selection. No attachments please Paste comments and resume on the e-mail letter.

Our spinning planet displays dawns and sunsets, cloudscapes, rivers, mountains and oceans which conspire to create vast panoramas of peace, magic and magnificence, like the American Southwest, a unique place of gigantic forces, red rock canyons, and stone parks that exist nowhere else. Beauty is a lady, a lady who must be courted with care, for she is disarming, dangerous and hold’s Pandora’s Box in her bosom. The earth is beautiful and she will rise when she wills, carbon or warming a small issue to a five billion year old world that long ago came to peace with plate tectonics, gigantic vulcanism, boiling seas, and nuclear winters that caused extinctions. We live, love and create here to admire and get over the idea that we are gods ruling the planet or that we can change the earth; she will change, when and if she wishes. To admire her is to be praised by the gods who first make mad those who would rule with the arrogance of hubris. The eloquence of nature passes beyond words, beyond thoughts, beyond the mystery of the human brain which in its mysterious workings and complexity surpasses any creation in the known universe. We are here because evolution, Earth's daughter wanted us here. Huxley wrote, "Mankind is evolution's way of knowing herself." Gaea, the Earth Mother, carries with her the molecular wisdom of five billion years.

What do you desire to accomplish? —a limitless, startling and fresh vision and perception of yourself and the world—a new found unshakable belief in your own talents and abilities; indefatigable intellectual growth, constant joy and achievement; a profound capacity to unravel the world’s mysteries by insight, intuition, no-mind and instinct; immense self-knowledge and confidence; inspiration, jubilation; the energy to seek, to grow and to find your own bliss; a never ending and exuberant desire to celebrate the wonder, enchantment and beauty of life on earth, In Tennyson’s words, “To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths of all the western stars, until I die.”

CREDO: One of the fundamental principles of the samurai code of Bushido is that in your own mind, you are already dead; there is nothing you have to fear. An artist should live and feel the same way. You are not attempting to exist in any state other than living and creating your art. You are not afraid to die unknown as far as recognition of you or your work by the popular world. What others think is of no concern. You create your art come what may. The only thing that matters is the passionate and overwhelming inner aesthetic that drives you on, that makes you feel that this is what I want to do, this is what I believe, this is what I'm going to discover, this is what I'm going to explore; this is the blazing, future. I don't care how dangerous it is. I don't care how enigmatic it is. I've got to go beyond what I've ever done before. I may and will go beyond what most people see or understand at this time. That is the Zen warrior’s and the artist’s code, “the absolute will to die” as I have translated it in my own terms in my books THE SAMURAI WAY and FIRE IN MY HAIR. —Harvey Lloyd

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Who is Harvey Anyway?

I had never heard of Harvey Lloyd, and when I read his ad in Craig's list, I really wished I was young again and full of passion and enthusiasm for life, so I could apply for that job and have a real life with my hair on fire. So I looked him up. Here's what I found:

Profile: Harvey Lloyd by Steve Anchell
The Samurai Way

“There’s a wonderful passage in the book, “Zen and the Art of Archery,” where the acolyte asks the master, ‘How do I know when to let the arrow go?’ And the master says, ‘It shoots.’ That’s the way it is when it’s right—in a ten thousandth of a second it shoots. But that ten thousandth of a second has to be the right ten thousandth of a second. And the arrow knows.

“I feel that there is a very close relationship between the samurai and the photographer. The samurai’s life is dependent on an instant of action. In A Book of Five Rings, Go Rin No Sho, the legendary 17th century Samurai, Miyamoto Musashi says, that in strategy ‘you must see distant things as if they were close, and take a distant view of close things. Perception is strong and sight weak. You must be able to see out of both sides of your eyes without moving your eyeballs. You must practice these things all the time.’

“ When I read this, I thought this was very interesting. There couldn’t be a better guide to how you have to see as a photographer. When you are out photographing, there are times when you have a split second to see everything: composition, light and shade, hue, chroma, and saturation; dynamics, symmetry and asymmetry—whatever it is you’re trying to do. When the image is processed, you realize you saw everything, your peripheral vision is that fast. Everything you’re doing is that fast, and if you practice that for 40 years, you get to be pretty good at it.”

Harvey’s latest in a long line of photographic books, The Samurai Way: Spiritual Journeys With a Warrior Photographer, published by Ruder Finn Press, should be available by the time you read this. According to Harvey, “The Samurai Way is a book about Zen philosophy, martial arts philosophy, creative strategy and a lot about the art of seeing. It has many of my images, tales of adventure from all the crazy places I’ve been, and the dangerous moments I’ve experienced. It is a worldwide photographic odyssey that contains my metaphysical and spiritual views, my ideas on creativity and aesthetics.

“ One of the principles of the samurai is that in your own mind, you are already dead; there is nothing you have to fear. An artist should feel the same way: You are not attempting to be alive in any state other than your art. You are not afraid to die as far as the recognition of you by the world. What other people think is of no concern. The only thing that matters is the inner aesthetic that drives you on, that makes you feel. This is what I want to do; this is what I believe; this is what I’m going to uncover; this is what I’m going to explore. I don’t care how dangerous it is. I don’t care how enigmatic it is. I’ve got to go beyond what I’ve ever done before, and may have to go beyond what most people see or understand. That is the absolute will to die as I have translated it in my own terms in The Samurai Way.”

Danger lurks everywhere when photographing on location. While hovering low over Hubbard Glacier in Alaska, Harvey looked down at the towering ice pinnacles and black crevasses and shouted to the pilot, “Brent, what happens if we lose power here?” Brent answered, “Not to worry Harvey, we helicopter pilots in Alaska have a saying, ‘Lots of altitude, lots of scream time. Down here, short scream time.’”

Like many great photographers, Harvey began his career as a graphic designer. Graduating from a six-month design course at the Cooper Union Brooklyn adjunct, he was soon operating his own company, Graphic Arts Center. Within two years GAC went to 80 employees. Harvey decided to go it alone; giving his share of the company to his two partners, he began his own promotional agency.

Around this time Harvey met the man that would change his life and his way of viewing the world, Alexei Brodovitch. A Russian émigré, Brodovitch was an extraordinary genius and the art director of Harper’s Bazaar during its golden years. He influenced many of the finest photographers of the 20th century through his workshops. Richard Avedon, Irving Penn, Hiro, Pete Turner and many others participated and grew under his tutelage.

Harvey says, “I got to know him, took care of his workshops, spent a lot of time with him, and learned there is no way you are ever going to reach the limits of the excellence that you seek.

“ Brodovitch would never talk about technique, about equipment; the only thing he would talk about was the mind behind the camera. His motto was, ‘Tonnez moi!’ which means ‘Astonish Me!’ And this is what he expected of everyone.”

Harvey began studying graphic design with Brodovitch and soon found himself in love with photography. He made shows using images and music. Brodovitch encouraged him (he always knew what you were best at even before you did). Harvey sold his business and went to London to become a photographer.

“ I took my cameras and portfolio and went to see Camera Press, a photojournalism agency. I saw the head guy and said, ‘I want to be a photographer.’ He looked at my work and said, ‘Young man, go find another profession.’

“ So I went from there to Black Star, and the director liked my work. I began shooting photojournalism in London for the Sunday magazines. I spent about a year there, and then came back to New York because I felt London was too sedate. The only place where ‘can-do’ is the mega-word is America. Anywhere else people think there are things you can’t do, and I never believed that. If there is anything you want to do, you go out and do it—you can do it. So I came back to America and started working.

“ My first client was Opera News. I had the pleasure of photographing the Metropolitan Opera rehearsals. I met the Italian film director, Federico Fellini when I was shooting for The Saturday Evening Post. I asked him, ‘Mr. Fellini, how important is the imagery in your pictures?’ He replied, ‘That’s everything, that’s everything.’”

Harvey had become a full-fledged photojournalist when he realized the big magazines were dead. “You go out and risk your life to cover a big story such as civil rights in the South, and they run two or three pictures, and not the ones you would have picked. So I opened a big production studio. The first place I opened was called Harvey Lloyd Productions, and we did big multi-screen, multimedia shows.

“ The guys and gals working for me were growing grass in the studio until I made them stop. It was those days—Electric Circus, The Grateful Dead—all that kind of music and imagery I was putting into shows for clients—very experimental. We had video installations of all kinds. I was having a ball, but the thing was much too big. At one point I had about 25 people and a huge studio on Fifth Avenue in the days when you could afford one.”

Then Harvey received an offer from the U.S. Information Agency (USIA) to travel to places around the world to produce a slide show with images and sound for the United Nations Conference on the Human Environment. The object was to show how people of the world lived.

“ I knew this was going to cost me the studio. I sensed it because they had very little budget, and I had a big overhead. I thought, either I do this or I keep doing what I’m doing. So I said, to hell with that, I want to see the world.

“ I went out, shot around the world and thought, this is the way to live.”

Another major change in his life occurred when he was called to do an assignment for the Royal Viking Cruise Line. The cruise line had seen some of the aerial photography work Harvey had done for Boeing and Kuwait Airways.

“ I created a campaign for them that became the pattern for the cruise industry, showing cruise ships in fantastic locations rather than showing the ships as hardware. That started me working for all of the major luxury cruise lines.

“ I traveled about a million and a half miles with my companion Shirlee Price, and visited close to 100 countries, or at least 100 ports-of-call, which is the title of the book, Voyages, The Romance of Cruising: The World’s 100 Most Exciting Ports of Call, which was published in 1999.”

In addition to his commercial work, Harvey was pursuing his personal projects because, “The art of photography is the only thing that concerns me.” For the last 20 years he has been photographing Alphabet City on the Lower East Side, Avenues A, B, C and D. “It went from being bombed-out, drug-ridden, crime-ridden—Upper Bronx in the old days is what it looked like—it was dangerous as hell—and now it’s becoming Yuppieville with high rent condos.

“ I covered that whole transition including extraordinary wall graffiti paintings by an artist named Chico, most of them memorials to dead kids or adults who overdosed or got shot. I was photographing those one day when a man walked up to me and said, ‘Hey, whaddaya doin’ here?’ I said, ‘I’m working on a book about Loisaida.’ That’s what they call the area. He said, ‘Oh yeah, last week a guy was shot doing what you’re doing.’”

Harvey’s personal work takes him further than The City, to the Southwest, where he has photographed the landscapes of Arizona, New Mexico, Colorado and Utah from the air for a book titled, Sacred Lands of the Southwest. The images in Sacred Lands include the ruins of the Anazasi, Canyon de Chelly, Chaco Canyon, Mesa Verde, Monument Valley, and most of the area’s National Parks.

He then did a book, Isles of Eden, on the outer islands of the Bahamas to record and help preserve a way of life that was dying out. The people’s kindness, dignity and folk wisdom enriched his own life. The island kids go off to Nassau and Paradise Island for the work and action.

While photographing at Point Lobos in California, the nature reserve where the Westons, Ansel Adams, Wynn Bullock, Henry Gilpin and other West Coast photographers have photographed, Harvey met Ansel Adams. “I chatted with him a bit, he was in the last few months of his life. I said, ‘Mr. Adams, I’ve long admired your work, I learned black-and-white photography by reading your books.’ I told him I had come to Point Lobos a number of times to walk the rocks and wander in the coves and see the last stands of Monterey Cypress. There was a pause and Mr. Adams looked up from under his big hat and said, ‘How I envy you.’

“ I realized he was no longer able to go out and photograph like he used to, he was too weak, he was dying of emphysema, and to him what I was doing was the life he no longer had. Riches and fame meant nothing to him. The only thing that mattered was that if you can’t work as an artist, you’re dead.

“ Photography has changed enormously in the last 10 or 15 years. I spent many years in the darkroom doing black-and-white developing and printing, later on color printing, but that’s all finished now. My Canon EOS 1DS digital cameras, Photoshop and Epson printers do it. The Epson 2200 prints are like nothing I’ve ever seen from film labs in the old days.

“ I do photography almost every day because if you don’t practice constantly, you’re going to get rusty. The art of photography has been my obsession all of my life. I have tried to do less purely commercial work and tried to make my income purely by what I love, photographing what I love.

“ If I don’t go out at least a couple of days a week, I will not maintain the proficiency I have.

“ Having met Alexei Brodovitch I do not accept anything less than trying to be the best in the world. Certainly, the kind of aerial photography I was doing nobody has ever done better and nobody ever will. But that’s just a departure point. If you don’t think you’re the best, if you don’t aim for the stars, what the hell are you doing it for?

“ My belief is similar to Ansel’s, the affirmation of being alive in this beautiful world and the good fortune of being in one of the few countries where there are enough riches and freedom to enable artists to do whatever they want to do. My attitude is one of endless optimism and exuberance and joy and glory in the world.”

To see more of Harvey Lloyd’s worldwide and personal photography and to read “The Art of Seeing,” visit Harvey Lloyd.com.
Source:
Rangefinder Magazine
December 2004
Steve Anchell

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